Boring holidays

So the first week of holiday is over.
Many things happened but the onli word to describe the holiday is still "boring".
There's still plenty of work im not done and its already the second week of the holiday.Wow.Time passes really fast.Dont u think so?Many stupid things happened too.
To my friends,family and even my lover.I think everyone hav their own problems rite?
Well juz hope everyone will get over with their problems.I dont know if i have any plans for my holiday but i guess there is none.Thr's nth to talk about my holiday.=3=
BOREDDD..

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The test is finally over~ =D
In juz 4 days..The teachers are crazy..Bt i dun mind cause i dont even study.
Its the same for me.Before exam or during exams.i juz hated books so much since i was a kid bt my parents are always forcing me to study as if studying is gonna bring me money.They said that if i study,i'll b smarter.I think they got it wrong.If i hav absolutely no interest in the things that they force me,i can b sure i cant do it.Its just a waste of time.I'd rather learn the things i wanted and not b a doll that do what they says.Its not true that our parents are always right.We are humans,we too have our own opinion.End of story. xD

I'll never let you go.

Babe,i love you.Believe me.Im not lying.Are you sure you wanna be with me forever?Cause I'll never let you go no matter what happens.Even if you wanna leave.I'll make you stay.Once you turn in to me,you'll never get away.So be prepared.=P
I never said "I love you" to you properly before right?Then i'll say it here,rite now.I LOVE YOU WAI SEN!

Books.. =(

Well,if you said that you wont end it then lets not let it end.I believe everything will be fine.Just hope that YOU are safe after what happened.I dont know why im kinda moody recently.All of a sudden,my mood will turn bad.Bt I'll try to cover it up by smiling n laughing.I got some of my test papers today but the results i received are the worst in my entire life.I didnt get that "high" marks in all those subjects before.Guess i should've listen to teachers in class while they are teaching. XD
Before holiday.I told myself to study.Bt,when holidays are over,i realized i didnt even touch a single book during the holidays.(I've wasted some time,again)
I wasnt satisfied with the results i get.So now I'll probably wont go online often.Even if I go online,I might be away from the computer.Ahhh...books.I hate them.They makes my life easier by giving me knowledge bt also made my life worst by making every single thing sooooooooooooooooooo complicated.

Friends?

What is a friend? Someone who is suppose to help you every single time when you're in trouble?If they are suppose to help you everytime,doesn't it make them ur "slaves"?
Some people think of their friends as their slave as if they are the king or something.But they're not.Just some idiots thinking highly of themselves.Some of them even betrays you.Most of them love to pretend.They pretends to be someone's best friend,then talks bad at their back.Some even gets close to you just because they wanted somethings from you like you are some kind of object to them.In this society,there's many kind of people.There are people even scarier than talking behind your back.They can mess up your life without any problems.To me,friends are people who gave us a smile on our face by making us happy without any problems at all.But there was once my mum told me that our best friend can also be our worst enemy as they already know almost everything about us.

What to do?

it was great.Finding someone that is worth loving.Bt just when we realized it.Its going away,further away.Being with you brings me joy,makes me sad,makes me happy,makes me feel so..alive.Heh..Bt now..something unfortunate happened.I have absolutely no idea what to do and what will happen.Will it be the end?I wonder. ^^
I just hope its not.Cause i dont want it to end like this.

Time

Time,is everyone's enemy.Once it goes,its never gonna come back.It couldn't be turn back.May it be good or bad.What we have gone through are all experience that we must live with.There is no such thing as "now" because when we said "now",another second went away and never came back.What we have,what we earned.Can never be changed by itself.Unless we keep the time going,have faith and patience.Time can kill or save a person.It can even destroy a person.So think,before doing anything,with no regrets.

Loved. Found my lost heart.

I juz love the feeling of being loved.At least,not so lonely anymore.
Its been a long time now.Tat my heart was lost at an unknown place.
Dont know where to go,dont know where to be at.Lost in a maze full of questions.
But now I've found my heart that belongs to me.Right here by my side.Out of the annoying maze that had been my container.A savior finally came n get me out from there.
I just love her.Her smiling face that is.But i have no idea what else is playing in her mind.But i hope they are all plans.Plans of the better future but not the worst like my last.Was waiting for a long time for her now.Finally.Finally she's now next to me. =)

Juz some boring crap.

Wad is life?Why some ppl are enjoying themselves bt some are struggling to live?Most of the ppl i know are following this cycle "start to study like a psycho when they're born.After they're old enuf to work,they stop studying then started to work like a mad man." is this called a life?sometimes,we even see things we dont even wanna c.Even if its juz some memories,some are included as nightmares.Another question.Wad is love?I think i've forgotten wad its meant.My heart would b numb at least once every single day.Guess im too soft?Or do u guys prefer me to b heartless?I once tot of bcoming heartless bt something or shud i say sum1 is holding me bac.. =)

张杰-《重播》

张杰-《重播》

如果天是灰的 如果爱还留着
是不是你的手 就还会牵着
你就像是白色 覆盖着我们所有颜色
心还空白色
我不经意 走到了这
而幸福却已走散了
从前的难过的 快乐的
已经不再有了
我该还为谁等着
为什么我哭了 因为你不爱了
又想起你了 是因为那首歌
我怎么了
忍不住留下了眼泪 还拼命的笑着
我和我又哭了 因为我都懂了
爱情的世界里 没什么规则
我怎么了
又站在熟悉的路口 开始怀念着

原来从慢慢的 在爱里蜿蜒着
画下胸口的热 那叫做歌手
重逢播放的歌 是我们遇见的那一刻
是否也会让你 难过了
我不经意走到了这
谁结束了我们的歌
从前的难过的 快乐的
已经不再有了
我该还为谁等着
为什么我哭了 因为你不爱了
又想起你了 是因为那首歌
我怎么了
忍不住留下了眼泪 还拼命的笑着
我和我又哭了 因为我都懂了
爱情的世界里 没什么规则
我怎么了
又站在熟悉的路口 开始怀念着

(为什么我哭了 因为你不爱了)
(又想起你了 是因为那首歌)
我怎么了
忍不住留下了眼泪 还拼命的笑着
我和我又哭了 因为我都懂了
爱情的世界里 并没什么规则
我怎么了
又站在熟悉的路口 开始怀念着



这是一首好感动的歌。不知道为什么我就是爱上了这首歌。好好听！
i felt relieved after seeing her ytd..its as if the lock in my heart is finally unlocked.im glad and also happy..=P
i am finally free from the curse~ LOL!hahaha!something's wrong with me.guess im too happy.. @@

The end

Show's over..I've wasted enough time on this drama.
Its time for me to leave for another movie i should b playing.
I told myself i have to get up on my feet and start the movie without any regret.
So i did what i told myself.Never regret anything I've done.
I never did regret anything I've done so far.Except loving her.
The person who acted in my previous play.But its all over.
The show already reached the end and i ain't showing any mercy anymore.
Just moving on to my next movie. =P

sometimes promises n words juz aint enuf..

Never make promises you cant keep.Dont hurt ppl hu are innocent n blieves so much in you.Cause you dont hav the rights to hurt them.Cause you're juz a jerk hu cant even keep your promise after u made it.Promises o promises..Why cant you just get out from human's life?You juz exist all around then hurting people hu doesnt even deserve to b hurt n helping those jerks hu doesnt keep promises..Why?Why do u exist?It doesnt matter anymore actually cause u r outta my life once n for all until i found a promise tat is kept.Im still searching for it..Still searching.. >.O
trust me..I'll find it sumday..n to some certain people,watchout please cause wad goes around comes around.hope you're prepared to recieved wad u've done.

meaningful words.

a flower bloomed again after some hard time.i guess tat's wad happen to everyone in this world..love,hurt then hate..haha..wad a great world we have..here's a joke i heard in my mum's car while heading bac home from sumwhr~

'thr's a father and a son.The father brought his son into a cave to relax n look around inside it.The lil kid suddenly fell down n cried..He was crying then he shouted.Suddenly,thr's echo shouting bac at him.He's juz a lil kid so he didnt know it is the echo.The boy was thinking "im already hurt,why are you shouting at me?". Then he asked "Who are you?Why are you shouting at me?".Then,the echo replied the same thing.The boy bcame angry n scolded the echo "You're stupid!" and yet,again the echo scolded him.He got very angry n tell his dad that thr's sum1 scolding him.His dad then replied him "My boy,why dont you say "you're beautiful".Say it loudly".The boy then followed his dad's instruction n shouted "youre beautiful" then the echo said the same thing.The boy got reli happy and shouted "you hav a kind heart!".Then again,the echo replied the same thing.The boy felt reli curious and ask his dad why that happened.His dad then replied "In this world,everything will go around.Whatever you throw,you'll get it back sooner or later.What goes around,comes around."

She said she's mine

Another day passed,another news is here.In juz a few days,she said she's mine.With a smile and a gentle look,i accepted.Another cute one indeed.She said she'll prove to me that she loves me more than the previous do.Im still waiting for her action to begin.Another "forever and always".With her presence,i felt i am in the past,trusting all over again.I wouldn't call it falling in love but i guess it takes time.I thought i wont ever accept a girl anymore because of some serious injury at the heart bt i guess i was wrong.We wont realize it when we accepted someone.When we already realize it,they already greatly influence our life.


p.s - a short update. hope waiwai dun mind.. ^^

A Story That Is Said To Be Past

A story began at the date of 14-2,valentines day..On this very day,a guy met a girl.They were total strangers.But the weird thing is,the boy met this girl in her house.After this very day,the boy kept quiet n didnt even talk to the girl.The girl then automatically talks to the boy.The girl n the boy slowly became friends.The girl always talks about his complicated life n love life with the boy so that the boy have to giv some opinion or some advice.The boy always helped her when she needed help bcause the boy pitied the girl for being so helpless.After some time,the boy went to the girl's house again for a visit.The girl then kiss the boy's cheek without even the boy knowing.The boy then turns around and see what is the girl doing,n he found that the girl is kissing him.He didnt cared n turned around.After some time,the girl then confessed to the boy saying she will talk to her current boyfriend that she wants to break up with him.The boy didnt really accepted her as his first girlfriend.He just pitied her for being so lonely.So the boy gave her a chance to be his girlfriend.The date was 14-3-2009 when they are together.After few months getting to know each other,the boy thought that he already understands the girl,so he trusted the girl with everything he has.The boy slowly started to like her.After some time,the girl became the boy's most important person in his heart.But he never knew what he was in the girl's heart.On 31-8-09,the girl is having a open house party and she invited many people including her childhood friends which she havent seen for some time.After meeting the childhood friend,she started to ignore the boy alot and she started to have nothing to talk about to the boy.She's always busy talking to her childhood friend.At that moment,the boy realized that the girl is starting to like that childhood friend of hers.Then the boy did everything he could that will make the girl to talk to him again.But nothing worked.After a few months,the boy is so tired bcause of PMR.He studied late at nite eventhough he is having fever.He accompany her til late at nite so that she wont feel lonely.When the boy slept,the girl then told the boy she feels lonely while looking at the boy sleep.So she woke her childhood friend so that he could accompany her.After hearing that,the boy's heart slowly shattered.It was tough to accept something that he did everything he could eventhough he is very ill.The girl never even appreciate what the boy did for her.When the boy told the girl that he doesnt want the girl to be so close to her childhood friend,the girl's answer totally broke the boy's heart.she said"He's been with me for a very long time now,we were suppose to b made for each other and i have some feelings for him."These words..Coming out from the person who asked to couple.Doesn't you want to beat the crap outta this girl?hmm?After some time,the boy made up his mind to break up with the girl.The next day,the girl told the boy that she wanted to broke up bcause her parents almost found out about them.So the boy slowly accepted it although he knows that its just an excuse to break up with him.He hated the girl who played with his feelings.He wanted to ruin her life.He wanted to beat the crap outta the girl bt what can he do when he is deeply in love with a slut like that?So,he chose to forget.Some people ask him to forget and forgive.But He couldn't forgive a girl who played with his feelings.He couldn't.The boy then started to drink wines and beer bcause of the scars that the slut gave him.He tried to suicide many times but never succeeded.At that time,this boy had many good friends to help him cure his wounds.Even if it cured just a little,the boy stopped the stupid things he did and started to move on.He never wanted to see the slut or the friend that betrayed him again because he don't know what he'll do to them when he sees them.The boy then gave back everything that belonged to the girl and him because he didnt want any memories.He's now moving on.With all his friends that supports him.But,in his heart,he felt lonely,like there's something missing.He never found the answer to what it is.

p.s.ppl hu know me might know what im talking about.=D

What to do?

I hav no idea wad's wrong wif me lately..im feeling
so frustrated..i juz wish i could juz disappear from this world.
sometimes i hav a feelin that no1 cares.bt in truth,every1 cares.
bt i hav no idea why im feelin like this..why?
can any1 tell me why?2day i shud b happy.bt when i reached home.
i turn into the emo person i used to be.i dont wanna b an emo!
tell me wad should i do to forget that person hu played wif my
feelings??im fucked up rite now..well..im nt sure of myself anymore.
i juz wanted to b normal.i want my life bac!god..is wanting my life
bac a bad request?i dont wanna know ppl hu are nt real friends.
i dont wanna know any of those fuckers..im tired..reli tired..
wad do u ppl want?information?information abt other ppl hu are close
to me?fuck off n go ask them urself!i dun wanna know anymore..
any1 here know how im feelin now?i dunno why im suddenly so angry..
i dont want those memories that are suppose to b ours!can any1 help
me to throw every single memory she left in the rubbish bin?cause they
are nth bt lies..hmm..guess its enuf..im gonna chill now..ciao..

模糊的眼睛

也许这是命运。我们永远都不能够在一起。
我们彼此答应过要一直在对方的身边，永不离开。
可是，你做到吗？还不是离开了。
告诉我为什么。你欺骗了我，伤了我那么深。
我还是原谅了你。最好的解释都是"我最爱的还是你".
“永远”一直都只是个谎言。
也许我已忘了.
也许我不想要了.
也许我好烦.
也许你已经深深地刻在我心里了.
就算我看错了人.
我也不后悔爱上了你.你带着我,认识了爱,认识了感觉.
这几天不知不觉地想起了你.我也不知道为什么.
也许我忘不了吧?也罢.我现在也不管了.
我答应过我不再流泪,所以我不会再哭.
就当作我刚从梦里逃了出来.现在轻声地说.再见.